if you live to be one hundred, i would want to live to be one hundred minus a day, so i never have to live a day without you.
It's official, It's been 78 days since I have last updated. Why may you ask? Actually the reason isn't far from my last entry, I have too many crazy emotionally draining things that come my way and xanga is the last thing on my mind. In fact, as time goes on, I only have more and more things happen to me and I realized that the last time things ever "settled down" for me was three years ago and I'm longing for that feeling right about now. Plus I was eating cereal as I typed this and I misplaced my cereal so now I'm hungry and problem burdened. (although I had to giggle at that one). I do have a sunny side to this entry though, I have learned alot of life's lessons in these past 78 days and I feel confident not to make those mistakes again or at least handle them differently. However (back to negative side) I still have so many conflicting emotions and issues with people that I don't even know where to begin. I hate so badly to feel this way, I use to be so confident in life and now I got nothing, absolutely nothing! So, since I have nothing and don't know where to begin, I will instead list what I do know...
1. Gut reactions are the correct ones
2. Everyone needs two best friends, one guy and one girl (you know who you are)
3. Stand up for yourself
4. There is no such thing as a perfect guy, no matter how much you want there to be, but there are some really nice ones!
5. No one really takes me serious except for like two people (number two on list)
6. There's no use running away from your problems
7. Keep your priorities straight
8. Never ever give up your happiness just so you can make some one else happy and I mean this in multiple areas of life.
9. Sacrifice time to make those who are nearest and dearest to you feel good if they are down, some how that good karma has to come back.
10.I want to live the "American dream" and get married and have a boy and a girl. I can't wait! But trust me, I will live life and have fun first!
11. Ride in walmart carts for an hour and see what people will say to you (my legs were killing me afterwards, but I received posititve feedback from other customers so it was all worth it!)
12. I can't read people worth a crap so therefore I have no idea what their intentions are for me (regarding my place in their life) or even if they care, I need to hone this skill otherwise im in trouble when I get into the "real" world.
I think I've done enough rambling for one morning and it did feel kinda, but only kinda, nice to update again I hope everyones life endeavors are going well!!!!!
With as much love
as one short person can give!!!
Kat
p.s. to a certain individual, I think you are quite wrong! I think there a still a fair amount of people who love to receive flowers, you just need to find them! I personally love to get flowers, so don't give up yet! And find the part of you that got shot. Now I'm done.
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